Hey world! How are you? Are you enjoying the Olympics being currently held for you? I hope so, it has been awesome!
Anyway, how's it going everyone? I hope everyone is well. I know I'm doing alright.
Alright so here is an update, A YEAR LATER.
I moved to Georgia. Against my better judgment I did move to this state. So far, not so bad! I mean it's not good, but it's not bad either. The weather here is nice! No snow though, but we do get thunderstorms almost on a day to day and I love it. Been here for almost a year and I'm still going strong.
Anyway here's what happened in order of events:
August 30, 2007- Morgan and I pack up the truck, say goodbye to everyone that matters and take off.
September 1st- My ass is up for 36 hours straight trying to make good time to Michigan to meet up with my dad and make the Football Game.
Sept. 2nd -We watch Michigan get their asses handed to them by APPALACHIAN STATE! WTF?!
Sept. 4th- We make it to my parents house and begin to endure the most hellish two months of everyone's lives. During this period ALOT of shit happened, and I think something in my mind snapped and never felt right since. I seem alot meaner nowadays.
October 19th- Morgan is told he has to move out and I've only seen him a handful of times since then, but I hear he's alright.
October 2007-February 2008- Unknown to alot of people, a deep depression fell over me. I couldn't find a job, I lived at home, which isn't a bad thing, but it's just not for me anymore. And way too much change occurred for me in such a short time. I went from having an AWESOME life in Minnesota, to gaining weight and doing nothing on my couch. It sucked really bad.
February- I'm done with all the self loathing and came to terms with what my life is, and finally started coming out of my funk. I got my license renewed and applied for a job in which I had an awesome foot in the door. Fast Forward a couple days and I got hired. Excitement starts to build that my life has gotten back on track.
April- I start my new job as a correctional officer. It all seemed overwhelming at the time, but I thought about how much my life will improve and immedietly adjusted to the situation with a nice smile on my face.
May- Things really get underway when I have to spend 5 weeks in the Police Academy training for my new job. It was a joke really. That was the easiest 5 weeks of "training" I've ever done. Met some good people and graduated. Now on to the real thing.
June- I start my new job. WOW was I a bit nervous. At first I was asking myself,"What the hell did I get myself into?" but kept my mind on the big prize. Slowly everything gets easier pertaining on how to perform my job and confidence in myself begins to build. On the 11th I find and apartment and move out. YAY!!! Big Prize obtained! Then.....OH NO! I'm all alone in this empty place....this kinda sucks.
July- Jobs going steady, learning new things everyday and confidence continues to grow. But I grow increasingly more and more lonely. Time to do something about that. How about cats you say? Well guess what...ended up getting 2 of them.
The Cats- Mattie: Mattie is a 3 year old female and very dark in color. Mattie's personality is that of a woman who is too good for everyone. When I get home from work she's like,"Ohh pet me, pet me....and now you can stop and leave me alone you pathetic thing. Ohh and where's my food?" She just stalks around the apartment staring at me like I got a booger in my nose and ends up in some curtains. If she's not doing that, then she's beating Elby's ass!
Elby- Elby is now an 11 week year old Tabby Male. He's orange and white and very fluffy. Elby's got the personality of a typical toddler. "OOOOH!! what's this?! OOOOH I made a mess!! OOOH I don't care!!! I'ma gonna break this now!" He knows how to tear shit up and in such a cute way. He knows how to annoy me and Mattie and when I'm not trying my best to settle him down, then Mattie helps by ripping him in what seems to be at least his 50th asshole. But he's great, cause when he's not acting like a kid who ate WAY to much chocolate that's been coated in Redbull he's cuddling up to me on the couch and watching some TV with me.
Present Day- Well everything is about the same. Still learning everyday. Enjoying the most aggrivating job in history, and getting my ass beat by my cats. I have no personal life, which is alright for the most part since I'm focusing on work. Got a new tattoo on my arm on my sister's birthday where she was spoiled by me, and am going to Michigan in October. If anything new develops, I'll let you know! Thanks for reading!
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Head's Splitting Wide Open
Ohh my gods! My fucking head is killing me with all the shit going on right now. I still can't wrap my mind around most of it at the moment. Here goes nothing though, hope this is therapy and helps me cope with shit.
1. Georgia: Morgan came up with this idea actually one night while we were both drunk off our asses. Thing is he wants to move down there and start a new life and get some shit going on. My thing is is that it would be great to move down there since my family is located down there at the moment. At the same time though I really don't due to the extreme comfort area I'm currently in right now. I know Appleton like the back of my hand. I know the people who live here, and get along with them great. I really don't like moving somewhere that is almost foreign in my eyes and trying to start fresh. It's really hard to move and make new friends and everything. Don't quite for sure know how I'm going to make this decision. All I know is that I have to make one soon. Stay or go.
2. The Car: The car right now is so fucking illegal right now and I don't have the funds to pay for it to become legal. I have Colorado plates on there that have been on there since I moved to Appleton. My tabs expired last month and we're still driving it. One day one of us is gonna get pulled over and have to go through some hellacious bullshit. Worst of all is that I still need to get my 21 license issued so if I get pulled over I'm doubly fucked over!
3. Money: Not a dime in my wallet right now. Sucks.
4. Personal Life: This has definitely been a fun little area for me as of late. I'm very much smitten with my very sexy neighbour downstairs right now. She knows how to get me going in the worst possible way. She hits my buttons like she knows how to turn me on. Yet at the same token I've been asking myself, "Is she worth the time?" I don't know. There is alot of history this woman has. Most of which I can't even begin to touch. She's constantly aching on my mind like a plague. I don't know what I want from this woman. I enjoy her company so much that I'm afraid that if I sleep with her that it could ruin an awesome thing.
Seriously if some of these questions don't get answered soon I might explode.
1. Georgia: Morgan came up with this idea actually one night while we were both drunk off our asses. Thing is he wants to move down there and start a new life and get some shit going on. My thing is is that it would be great to move down there since my family is located down there at the moment. At the same time though I really don't due to the extreme comfort area I'm currently in right now. I know Appleton like the back of my hand. I know the people who live here, and get along with them great. I really don't like moving somewhere that is almost foreign in my eyes and trying to start fresh. It's really hard to move and make new friends and everything. Don't quite for sure know how I'm going to make this decision. All I know is that I have to make one soon. Stay or go.
2. The Car: The car right now is so fucking illegal right now and I don't have the funds to pay for it to become legal. I have Colorado plates on there that have been on there since I moved to Appleton. My tabs expired last month and we're still driving it. One day one of us is gonna get pulled over and have to go through some hellacious bullshit. Worst of all is that I still need to get my 21 license issued so if I get pulled over I'm doubly fucked over!
3. Money: Not a dime in my wallet right now. Sucks.
4. Personal Life: This has definitely been a fun little area for me as of late. I'm very much smitten with my very sexy neighbour downstairs right now. She knows how to get me going in the worst possible way. She hits my buttons like she knows how to turn me on. Yet at the same token I've been asking myself, "Is she worth the time?" I don't know. There is alot of history this woman has. Most of which I can't even begin to touch. She's constantly aching on my mind like a plague. I don't know what I want from this woman. I enjoy her company so much that I'm afraid that if I sleep with her that it could ruin an awesome thing.
Seriously if some of these questions don't get answered soon I might explode.
Tuesday, June 5, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Women
Hey again. Just me sitting up at 6 o'clock in the morning feeling like expressing myself once again to the soothing sounds of key strokes. There has been alot on my mind as of late. Pretty sure you know what this blog might be about though eh? I've been trying to lie down and sleep for the past couple of hours, but my mind has been going a mile a minute tonight. Plain and simple fact is that I miss having the company of a woman by my side. Feeling the warmth of a woman's body and listening to the little noises they make while they fall asleep. I very much do miss that feeling I used to have.
There are your typical advantages of course about having someone of the opposite sex around, but I'll try not to get into that since as of right now that's not what I'm seeking per se. I just want someone here to lie down with me and someone I can cuddle in my arms while they sleep. Sometimes just having that is alot better than sex, and I'm sure there are a couple people that might agree with that. It's just nice to wake up and see that person smiling at you. It makes you feel like your the king of the world. Like with just that little smile, kiss, or snuggle into your arms makes you feel like you could conquer that whole damn world. Know what I'm saying? If not I don't know if you can pass as human. Everyone needs some sort of affection every now and again.
If you can't tell obviously I'm very much attracted to someone right now and in all honesty want to be with them sleeping right now. I sure hope you've figured that out. If not, don't tell me. Anyway, but yes that's what this is about. I am sort of falling for someone right now. If you know me well enough you know this to possibly be a bad thing to. I don't have too much of a problem hooking up with someone I know won't go anywhere, but when that opportunity arises that hey I could be someone in this person's life, I sure do know how to fuck up royally bad in that department. If Aaron is reading this he is probably nodding his head with a smile on his face, cause he knows how much of a problem it is for me.
My roomate and I had a decent chat tonight about the philosophies of life and how we interpret things we deal with everyday and I came to the conclusion that I think into things way to much. I really do. I think more or less about the potential consequences of my actions more than anything. Not that I do anything bad or anything, but when I know something is just not going right, I think about how that could affect me and a person's attitude towards me. I pick at every single detail in my mind and try to analyze the situation the best I can and then wonder how could I have done this better. I will admit and this is not me getting to down on myself or anything, my confidence is just fine, but I do feel rather inadequate sometimes. It just feels like I'm falling into a hole or something and I can't get out. I get so lost in thought about what I could have done that I almost want to attach a mute button in my head and just go with it, but it's hard for me. Another problem of mine and I will emphasize and once again some of you know this all to well...I do fall hard and fast. Good thing I also know things do mature with time.....
There are your typical advantages of course about having someone of the opposite sex around, but I'll try not to get into that since as of right now that's not what I'm seeking per se. I just want someone here to lie down with me and someone I can cuddle in my arms while they sleep. Sometimes just having that is alot better than sex, and I'm sure there are a couple people that might agree with that. It's just nice to wake up and see that person smiling at you. It makes you feel like your the king of the world. Like with just that little smile, kiss, or snuggle into your arms makes you feel like you could conquer that whole damn world. Know what I'm saying? If not I don't know if you can pass as human. Everyone needs some sort of affection every now and again.
If you can't tell obviously I'm very much attracted to someone right now and in all honesty want to be with them sleeping right now. I sure hope you've figured that out. If not, don't tell me. Anyway, but yes that's what this is about. I am sort of falling for someone right now. If you know me well enough you know this to possibly be a bad thing to. I don't have too much of a problem hooking up with someone I know won't go anywhere, but when that opportunity arises that hey I could be someone in this person's life, I sure do know how to fuck up royally bad in that department. If Aaron is reading this he is probably nodding his head with a smile on his face, cause he knows how much of a problem it is for me.
My roomate and I had a decent chat tonight about the philosophies of life and how we interpret things we deal with everyday and I came to the conclusion that I think into things way to much. I really do. I think more or less about the potential consequences of my actions more than anything. Not that I do anything bad or anything, but when I know something is just not going right, I think about how that could affect me and a person's attitude towards me. I pick at every single detail in my mind and try to analyze the situation the best I can and then wonder how could I have done this better. I will admit and this is not me getting to down on myself or anything, my confidence is just fine, but I do feel rather inadequate sometimes. It just feels like I'm falling into a hole or something and I can't get out. I get so lost in thought about what I could have done that I almost want to attach a mute button in my head and just go with it, but it's hard for me. Another problem of mine and I will emphasize and once again some of you know this all to well...I do fall hard and fast. Good thing I also know things do mature with time.....
Saturday, May 26, 2007
New Blogspot
Hey how's it going everyone? This is where I will now continue my blogging that I do so enjoy every now and again. Right now I'm just sitting here listening to a little Ed Alleyne-Johnson and his album Purple Electric Violin Concerto. Nothing like it actually. Used to listen to it back in high school alot, but I haven't listened till now since then. A nice rock violin album. Check it out.
Anyway I suppose I'll move on and let you good folks get the lowdown on what's been going on with me as of recent. Still working out at the station in town here. Been doing it for 6 months and hate every day of it. I hear about the gas prices all day and I'm tired of it, but I won't quit. I just can't believe the damn politics that go into working at a gas station. Started another job today though, which was kinda fun. I'm also now cooking at a small cafe in the next town. Get paid everyday so I can have some spending cash now.
I think everyday on how I should get a jumpstart on my life ya know? Get out there and get my ass a good full time job and make some money and plan my whole future out. Then I stop...and take a good look around and realize something. I watch all the kids my age that I hang out with and I see what they are doing...same thing I am, and having a good time. I look at myself and go...these are my glory years. I'm supposed to be having fun right now and not worry about the future. The more I worry about it the faster it will come and I will miss it all. I just gotta keep my head on straight and be smart and I'll be alright. Even with my tight/limited budget I still manage to have a good day everyday. I have good friends right now that know how to keep me in the most awesome of spirits. Got Morgan who I currently live with. We both have the exact same interests and know how to keep entertained. Got Candy downstairs who is a single mom, 22 and still manages to keep on smiling. We have a good time and she has the greatest smile that keeps me around. Of course there is also everyone else I have, but these 2 are the ones that know my whole life right now, so that's why I'm only mentioning them.
Gotta say though I'm very excited to see how the next couple years unfold in my life and in the U.S. Alot of good candidates for presidency and the best thing is Bush cannot run again thank gods. Mike Gravel is looking the most promising in my eyes, cause either he's so good at spewing bullshit or he's actually gonna get shit done. Plus he wants to change one particular law that would just be the greatest thing to happen to this country. I won't get into it here though. As for my life though it seems kinda wishy washy. So many things are going so wrong yet so right right now. I'm broke as a fucking joke and I don't know how I'm going to get to keep driving here soon. I gotta get my tabs changed before June, but I have to get a whole bunch of other shit done first to do that and it requires alot of money. I really don't know what to do, but I hope everything will turn out alright. Talks about moving as well. Time to move on already. Morgan and I came to this agreement the other night that these towns here will consume you. You must never stay too long than you can. He said something about some country called Canada and I said that that would be awesome, so we might look into it later.
By the way if you were wondering. I did delete my myspace account. I got tired of all the spam and all the bullshit so I said forget it and got rid of it. Facebook is working out much better than I thought. But I suppose I will get going now and get some laundry done. Also though one more note. I have a new e-mail address now as well it's caspercreep@gmail.com I'll also be getting rid of my hotmail address soon and strictly use that one from now on. So now you know. Later.
Anyway I suppose I'll move on and let you good folks get the lowdown on what's been going on with me as of recent. Still working out at the station in town here. Been doing it for 6 months and hate every day of it. I hear about the gas prices all day and I'm tired of it, but I won't quit. I just can't believe the damn politics that go into working at a gas station. Started another job today though, which was kinda fun. I'm also now cooking at a small cafe in the next town. Get paid everyday so I can have some spending cash now.
I think everyday on how I should get a jumpstart on my life ya know? Get out there and get my ass a good full time job and make some money and plan my whole future out. Then I stop...and take a good look around and realize something. I watch all the kids my age that I hang out with and I see what they are doing...same thing I am, and having a good time. I look at myself and go...these are my glory years. I'm supposed to be having fun right now and not worry about the future. The more I worry about it the faster it will come and I will miss it all. I just gotta keep my head on straight and be smart and I'll be alright. Even with my tight/limited budget I still manage to have a good day everyday. I have good friends right now that know how to keep me in the most awesome of spirits. Got Morgan who I currently live with. We both have the exact same interests and know how to keep entertained. Got Candy downstairs who is a single mom, 22 and still manages to keep on smiling. We have a good time and she has the greatest smile that keeps me around. Of course there is also everyone else I have, but these 2 are the ones that know my whole life right now, so that's why I'm only mentioning them.
Gotta say though I'm very excited to see how the next couple years unfold in my life and in the U.S. Alot of good candidates for presidency and the best thing is Bush cannot run again thank gods. Mike Gravel is looking the most promising in my eyes, cause either he's so good at spewing bullshit or he's actually gonna get shit done. Plus he wants to change one particular law that would just be the greatest thing to happen to this country. I won't get into it here though. As for my life though it seems kinda wishy washy. So many things are going so wrong yet so right right now. I'm broke as a fucking joke and I don't know how I'm going to get to keep driving here soon. I gotta get my tabs changed before June, but I have to get a whole bunch of other shit done first to do that and it requires alot of money. I really don't know what to do, but I hope everything will turn out alright. Talks about moving as well. Time to move on already. Morgan and I came to this agreement the other night that these towns here will consume you. You must never stay too long than you can. He said something about some country called Canada and I said that that would be awesome, so we might look into it later.
By the way if you were wondering. I did delete my myspace account. I got tired of all the spam and all the bullshit so I said forget it and got rid of it. Facebook is working out much better than I thought. But I suppose I will get going now and get some laundry done. Also though one more note. I have a new e-mail address now as well it's caspercreep@gmail.com I'll also be getting rid of my hotmail address soon and strictly use that one from now on. So now you know. Later.
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